Jaejoong: An actor who had much desire for his craft?Jaejoong: Very much… How do you say… shall I say laughter? I feel that he was very much overflowing with smiles. Worries… He was someone with a lot of worries, always. To refrain from showing those worries—he tried hard to do that also. I don’t know what it was, but he always had so many worries. And the counseling on those worries—we had many of those, as hyung and dongsaeng. But I remember his face—the face that, even in the midst of them, never once lost the smile.

Jaejoong: Ah… he was a singer who always worked hard, and also always worried for the sake of his fans.

Jaejoong: A while ago… when I had gone to the United States and maybe two to three days had passed… I heard of the news. In the United States… as soon as I landed in the Los Angeles Airport, I had a call from Yongha hyung. “Where are you.” “In the US.” “Ah, so you’ve gone to the US. When you come back, let’s have a drink together.” He had said those words to me.

And even before that, when we had met in Japan, he had spoken repeatedly about that concert. Very much… let us keep improving, improving. Those words, he had told me repeatedly, over and over. But, then suddenly such a thing happened… Just… My mind had no thoughts. I was… for a very long time, just blank…

Jaejoong: He was someone that did not give off the feel of being a celebrity, at all. He was someone like the hyung next door. When you look at the results and the feats that Yongha hyung had accomplished in his life, he had a very high stature. Despite that, he showed himself as someone who, separate from the renown and popularity of celebrities, was a human being exactly like everyone else—very often.

So I feel that perhaps that is why the people around him loved very much the Yongha hyung, the man.

Jaejoong: When Yongha hyung did not have too many activities in Japan, we were in Japan quite a lot because of group activities. There was a time in which we lived in Japan for six months, a year. If my contact information changed, of if the contact information of those friends in Korea changed, then we would lose touch with each other—this happened from time to time. But in my voicemail, “My number changed. Are you healthy? Your health is the most important thing, so take care of it. And I miss you. And also… even once… I should go to you, to see you.” He’d say that. But many people say that—“let’s meet, let’s have a drink.” Often, those words just end in words. But he was someone who really kept to the words that he spoke. He really came all the way to Japan. Yongha hyung… before he left… he came to see a performance of ours, in Japan. He did say that because of a schedule he had to go out in the middle, but… He was someone who really kept every word.

Jaejoong: First, as a basic thing, we talked about music a lot. And also, performing—we talked about it a lot. We talked about acting also. We also talked about women. Yes. How do you say…? Really, what is strange is that he felt lonely a lot. He felt lonely quite often, but he relieved the loneliness with other things. I think probably that thing was music. Even though his main career was that of an actor… he’d say: “I really want to sing. I really want to sing, and… I want to begin anew, from the very beginning.”

Jaejoong: I think all the fans know. The musician or the actor they like… from behind the scenes, “how hard do they work for our sake?” I think the fans know the answer to that the best. He worried so very much. On stages that were so big, he had performed many times, and he also had so many fans. But for the sake of the fans in Japan… “from the little theatres, from the very beginning, I want to begin performing anew.” He’d tell me that in his worry, and would repeatedly ask me whether I thought that was okay. Because he had such a loving heart for the fans like that—probably that is why, even now, the fans are waiting for Yongha hyung.

Jaejoong: Ah… When I think of Hyung, already laughter comes forth from me. I… from Hyung… truly so many things I think I learned from you for a long time… and to the many people around me… the kind heart that Hyung showed… I am conveying that… and I want to also show it as you did… And also, your mother, your brother-in-law, your older sisters… I would contact them, have meals together with them and such… but now that you aren’t here… really you are missed…. The place where you are now—I visit it often… and talk to you very often, but… Ah… I do not know. But, I don’t know. More than any other thing, I wish that you are also happy where you are. So that even by just looking up at the sky, we will continue to have your smile come to our minds… please, continue to protect us… I wish you’d smile down at us. Really really, I love you. Thank you.

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trans by: JYJ3

Momma’s Source: sharingyoochun.net

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